My Creative Output Throughout My 20’s – A Retrospective

This may well seem a little indulgent. However, being just days from leaving my 20’s behind, my sense of self-worth is considerably less than secure, and I felt ambushed by a feeling of sheer inadequacy earlier today as I waited for a train at possibly one of the most neglected major railway stations in the UK, a feeling I felt I had to shrug. I have tried to shrug this feeling by ignoring what I haven’t done during the past 10 years, and what I have done. So here is a chronicle of things I have made during the past 10 years (some of the stuff I wouldn’t wish to show as my main body of work now, but it isn’t stuff I should try to deny was ever made also).


20 years old (2004)

P1020923The above painting was an attempt to make a landscape that resembled the experience of being locked under the control mechanisms of eating disorders.

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Mind the drug-the body the victim

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The Grim Reaper Snowman (a character used for my Things To Worry About t-shirts)

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Image   P1020927The Smog Monsters (character used for Things To Worry About T-shirts)

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Music:

Demons

Head In Hands

In Balance

In Balance written just before my 21st birthday; this recording made in 2007


21 years old (2005)

the mob

Images of my The Last Rainforest piece, possibly the first injection of irony into my work.

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ImageImage self portrait, rooted by worry

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Loosing Bits of Myself As I Get further Back into the Social World

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Images from UltraMarket

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Music:

Everything Goes Away

I Wish

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22 years old (2006)

The Phone Sharks (preliminary Tide of Society piece)

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ImageLike Bullets to the Skin

Image Barnsley After the Sea-levels Rise (Happy Ending)

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Barnsley in Bloom 2020

Image Image Green Graffiti, Junction 38 tree

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Barnsley After the Sea Levels Rise (Unhappy Ending)

Image Britain 2050: the Human Condition

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Music:

The Uniform

Change of Heart

Gotta Get Those Melodies

Red Carpet

Straight Lined 


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23 years old (2007)

Barnsley After the Sea levels Rise (Happy Ending)

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Barnsley With a View of Other Towns

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Self Portrait in Co-existence with Nature

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Comfortably Blind

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The Underlying Pessimism of The 21st Century

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The Revenge of a Discarded Friend

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House-Hunting 2050house hunting 2050

If You Don’t Get out and Walk

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Music:

Mellow Out

Everybody Needs to Be my Friend

Generation Slut

I Can’t Keep a Secret

World: I’m not Taking This

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24 years old (2008)

Humans In Cages, art project. Drawing title: The Odds That Were Against us

The odds that were against us

Image Humans In Cages, art project. Drawing title: Land of Opportunity

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The Hole in My Stomach Is Making The Hole in The Sky

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This Hole Cannot Be Filled in a Carpark Overspill

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People Factory

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The Sprawl

The Sprawl (1697x2400)

The Sprawl (in situ)

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The Healing Process installation, Hive Gallery exhibition

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Music:

Sound Salvation

My Useless Concern

Kill Me Car

Planet Internet

Blind Eyes

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25 years old (2009)

Central Bombardment

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The Alpha Forest installation, Emergence exhibition, Barnsley

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We Are Watching Ourselves Sink

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Looking For Truth installation. Part of Truth and Tribute exhibition

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Images of Tunnel Vision to Copenhagen exhibition, Barnsley. Set to coincide with 2009 Copenhagen climate summit

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Books:

Going Nowhere, Writing Letters to Nobody


26 years old (2010)

“I Believe in Capitalism”

Image Installation at The Working Artist exhibition

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The Logic of Neoliberalism

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A Final Acceptance

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Global Ghetto, 2045, Marks the Centenary of The Defeat of Fascism

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Books:

The Tide of Society

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27 years old (2011)

The Index For Child Well-being

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Image Image from Making a Mark exhibition, Hive Gallery, Barnsley

Image Image from Globalsapiens exhibition, Sheffield

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Image of Achieving and Getting Things Done installation from  Globalsapiens exhibition, Sheffield

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ImageImage of Achieving and Getting Things Done installation from  Globalsapiens exhibition, Sheffield

In The City…

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Books:

Inner Workings (writings to accompany exhibitions)

Blogs

The Outer conflict reflects the inner conflict (thoughts/feelings after attending March 26 demo)

A Past returning to haunt and all roads forward blocked

https://johnledger.wordpress.com/2011/11/08/2-sides-of-the-same-band-why-primal-screams-screamadelica-and-exterminator-are-the-same-album-just-different-emotions/


28 years old (2012)

Who Would Want To Listen To This?

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The Democratic Umbrella

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Heartbeat Gallery, Exhibition, Sheffield

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Image of Mary Rose: we are sinking installation, from Borderline Ballardian exhibition

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Image of Mary Rose: we are sinking installation, from Borderline Ballardian exhibition

Image of Memory Hole installation, from Borderline Ballardian exhibition

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The Planet’s Mental Illness

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https://johnledger.wordpress.com/2012/01/20/desperation-witnessed-on-a-facebook-wall-and-desperation-on-the-railway-lines-on-our-endless-commutes-going-nowhere/

https://johnledger.wordpress.com/2012/03/09/ghosts/

https://johnledger.wordpress.com/2012/04/04/i-wanted-to-know-the-exact-dimensions-of-hell-eating-disorders-are-caused-by-the-totality-of-global-capitalism-not-just-advertising/

https://johnledger.wordpress.com/2012/06/16/daft-punk-discovery-late-dreams-of-a-capitalist-hyperreal-utopia/


29 years old

The Place of Dead Ends

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Mind Camp

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ImageA Psychic Time-bomb

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West Riding of Yorkshire: A psychogeographical Account installation, at An Unofficial Alumni exhibition

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Books:

West Riding of Yorkshire: A Psychogeographical Account

Blogs:

https://johnledger.wordpress.com/2013/01/31/just-where-the-hell-are-we-in-time/

https://johnledger.wordpress.com/2013/01/20/thinking-along-the-hallam-line-leeds-wakefield-barnsley-meadowhall-and-sheffield/

https://johnledger.wordpress.com/2013/02/24/our-dark-hearts/

https://johnledger.wordpress.com/2013/02/07/why-i-couldnt-stay-in-london-and-why-barnsley-may-be-my-beast-of-burden/

https://johnledger.wordpress.com/2014/01/07/the-blanket-of-malaise-hanging-over-2013-can-it-be-torn-down-in-2014/

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About John Ledger

A visual Artist, eternal meanderer and obsessive self-reflector by nature, who can’t help but try to interpret everything from within the tide of society. His works predominantly take the form of large scale ballpoint pen landscape drawings and map-making as social/psychological note-making. They are slowly-accumulating responses to crises inflicted upon the self in the perplexing, fearful, empty, and often personality-erasing human world.

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